Family

It's really hard to talk about what's going on, when there's not a whole lot actually going on. My nights are rather uneventful, and I work out and sleep during the day. It's really nice to have a break out here, cause I know when I get back north I'll be busy again.

You know one thing that did happen. I got an e-mail from Chris that her wedding pictures came in. They were very beautiful. As I was looking through them, it suddenly occurred to me how much I really am missing. I know I wasn't around a whole lot when I was living in Chicago, but I still felt connected, and like I knew what was going on in the family. Somehow out here I guess I just miss that day to day stuff that no one really thinks is important to pass on, and most of the time it really isn't important; I think it just helps us a people to connect to each other, and when you miss it, you miss some of that connection. I think looking through Chris' wedding, and realizing that I really missed it, being out here really hit me.

For those of you that don't know my mom's side of the family too well, Chris is my cousin. Chris and I have had a strange relationship over the years. Sometimes we were best friends, and sometimes we wouldn't talk to each other for months. All in all though, I always looked up to Chris as my big cousin, a strong woman, and even in our worst times one of my best friends. I don't know how to explain it, but I feel that I've missed something huge in this family; not only Chris' wedding (which is huge), but yet another event in which the family bonds and I've missed. And looking through her wedding pictures, it really made me start thinking about how much I miss family. I guess I'm just being mushy and emotional, but that's all part of the deal I guess right? Anyway-- to all my family, I miss you guys and I hope that when I come home I get to spend some real quality time with you.